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So this is taking longer than I hoped and expected it would.  I’m going to try my hardest to get the new layout up before I go out of town on Friday night, but honestly, coming from me, that doesn’t mean much, even to myself.

Lately, I’ve just been hanging out with my boyfriend, Alex, and his friends.  It’s really fun and I love all of them, but I wish I had friends that were only mine that I could hang out with during the week.  I feel like I’m drifting away from all of the people I hang out with.

Where I live, I lost all of my friends when I went to college freshman year.  I have one here, and she used to be my  best, but now we hardly ever see each other,  mostly because we have really different schedules.  I can’t hang out with any of my college friends because they live at school still and I don’t have the money to drive up to see them all the time and I work full time during the week.  I also have to choose between my boyfriend and my friends and I usually end up choosing my boyfriend.  After all, he is my best friend, but I wish I could figure out how to balance all of my best friends.  I feel like I could try harder at my relationships with people.  I just assume that people are going to call me to hang out and stuff, but really I have to put in half the work too.

I’m really excited for August to be here.  On the first, I move into my house with three of my friends and then later that day Alex, his friends, and I are all going to Chicago.  On the second we will be attending Warped Tour, on the third we’re going to Six Flag, and on the fourth we’re going to another show.  I come home that same day and then on the sixth my sister and I fly out to Seattle to visit my aunt until the twelfth.  I have so many fun things to do before school starts, I can’t wait

It’s true, I am coming back.  This time I want to focus more on my writing, as my skills of story telling and general writing style needs improving.  There will still be visitor content, but it will be minimally updated.  

I figured just annoucing the previous paragraph wouldn’t make for an interesting read so here’s some updates on how my life has changed over the past six months. 

First of all, I have a new boyfriend.  My ex, Dustin, was a great guy.  He treated me well and everything, but I’m at the point in my life where any one of the people I’m with could be the person I spend the rest of my life with.  I thought I could see myself with Dustin for the long haul, but I started seriously thinking about it and realized that he wasn’t the right person for me.  I am highly motivated, am in school, and am doing the best I can to make my life better for myself than it was for my parents and I growing up.  Dustin didn’t even manage to graduate high school and I felt that we would always be in different places in life.  I would be on the path to a great career and he would always be working paycheck to paycheck.  I don’t want to be the “breadwinner” in my family by any means.  I need someone that can pull their own weight financially.  Another reason Dustin and I had a falling out was because he didn’t want children and at first he didn’t even want to get married! After I broke it off with him, he said he wanted to be married and have children, and I wanted to believe him, but I think he said those things because they were what I wanted to hear.  Dustin was definitely heartbroken and I think he said whatever he could to change my mind. 

That’s all in the past now and I am with an amazing guy named Alex.  We met in my Greek mythology class (We love Greek mythology so much that we want to name our future daughter Athena!) and have been basically inseperable ever since.  He does want to get married and I don’t have to try and force him to want to have a family.  He’s going to school and is highly motivated, probably even more than me.  I love this boy with all my heart and I can’t wait to see how our relationship develops.

That’s enough about relationships though.  I’m still double majoring in Art and Pre-Business.  I recently applied to get into the Business College at my school, but unfortunately I was rejected due to the fact that I got a C in Managerial Accounting and I needed a B-.  That’s just fine with me for now because after your junior year, if you have 60 semester hours, you are automatically admitted.  I can take any of the core business classes while not being enrolled in the business college anyway, so that doesn’t really mess up my plans as far as graduating when I want to.  I’m also going to be taking a print making class, which is really exciting for me because I’m not that familiar with the processes.  The other art classes I’ve taken, I’ve had a least a little experience in and I’m excited to venture out and try new things.  Who knows, maybe I’ll be really good at it. 

I do have a new layout to be put up soon.  I would’ve tonight, but right now I’m at my boyfriend’s house while he’s at work and I don’t have access to any of the files here.  Hopefully, I’ll get things running soon, which shouldn’t be a problem means how I lost all of my friends when I left for college and my boyfriend lives in a different city than I do and therefore, I have nothing to do after I get off work.

Anyway, that’s enough of my ramblings, which will probably go unnoticed and unread.  (Which is fine with me because I’m using this as a tool to develop my writing skills and to basically keep a diary for myself without having to write to nobody.)

Hopefully, I’ll be back someday.

I think I even have a layout I could use…

I haven’t been posting very much lately, I suck. I just am not very motivated means how I don’t get very many comments, etc.

I feel bad about writing my last entry about my boyfriend. He bought me a guitar and surprised me with it on my actual birthday and had been planning it for weeks.

Tonight I have a test, which I think I’ll do well in. I got a B on the last one and I feel like I know what’s going on even more on this one, so we’ll see. I’m also really psyched about my photography assignment. We’re doing portraits and I have this really great idea. I was in the dark room today and this is the first assignment I’ve done where my prints came out exactly how I envisioned. Gahh, I can’t wait to show them in class.

Besides being busy with school, I opened up a blend challenge site, so if you all could check that out, I’d love you forever. I need entries! I haven’t gotten a single one yet. http://blends.threeghosts.org <– CLICK THERE!! Thanks!!

Tomorrow I will no longer be a teenager, as it is my 20th birthday. Sadly, not one of my birthdays in the past five years has made me mature at all. Thankfully, I’ve always been pretty mature for my age when I absolutely need to be, but most of the time, I act like I’m still in 9th grade, which is very sad considering I’m now a sophomore in college.

Although birthday’s are supposed to be happy times, mine always makes me sad. I’ve never really felt like anyone ever gave a crap about my birthday, which is a completely selfish and bratty thing to say, but for all of my other friends, people plan things for them and I haven’t had a birthday party since 8th grade and even when I had birthday parties only a few people would show up. This weekend I was supposed to be celebrating my birthday. When it was my boyfriends birthday I went out of my way to go back home and spend the entire weekend with him, surprised him, took him out to dinner and everything. He didn’t do the same for me… I mean, he does come up here every weekend, but it just felt like any other weekend to me. He didn’t do anything special. He didn’t plan anything. He just didn’t try as much as he would’ve liked. The only thing we did for my birthday all weekend was he took me out to dinner AFTER I had said something about it. I shouldn’t have had to or even asked at all for him to take me out. He should’ve done it on his own or I should’ve just not been so selfish, I guess. I DO understand that he doesn’t have money to do things like that, but STILL, you don’t have to have money to make a surprise.

On a better note, school’s been going wonderfully. I recently got my Arts of Africa test back and I only missed 5 points on the entire thing, which is nearly amazing considering it was entirely an essay and short answer test. I also got news that my Financial Accounting test was checked incorrectly and my score went up 8%, which made me extremely happy considering my grade before the 8% wasn’t exactly what I wanted. Unfortunately, I’m really stressing out about my photography assignment. I tried to go into the dark room yesterday and the doors were locked. Today I developed two rolls and it looks like some of the stuff I did, won’t work for the assignment and I’m missing some things. I have until Thursday to get four prints. I don’t have any done. GAH!

I need to update more often, I think.

So the other day I got my Financial Accounting test score back. Let’s just say without the curve I would’ve been fucked. However, I did score above the average which means I received a B. My friend Jasmine got a 96%! That means she missed TWO problems on the entire test. Only 2% of the class received a score of 90 or better…

This weekend was really fun. My friend’s boyfriend had an apartment party and Dustin and I decided to go. We drank almost an entire bottle of UV Blue to ourselves plus a couple of cups of Jungle Juice made with Everclear. Needless to say, we were all really drunk and poor Dustin because he puked nearly five times. I felt bad, but after he puked, he still said he had a good time. Gosh, that boy is adorable drunk.

Wow! 14 comments? Thanks guys! I shall return those after I finish writing this blog.

I just got back from taking my Arts of Africa test. It was nearly as hard as I was expecting and I know for sure I didn’t fail. The only thing I didn’t know anything about was one term and I still wrote what I thought they were, but I just looked it up and I probably will only get 1 point for that question, if that. I still have two more classes today and my Financial Accounting test, which I have to have to have to do well in. Jasmine and I were studying last night and I think I have a pretty good grasp on things.

Dustin, my boyfriend, came up this weekend and I felt bad because I was so stressed out and we seriously didn’t do ANYTHING. I didn’t even go out this weekend. I studied, which is something new for me. Last year, I would’ve said, “Fuck it, I’m not going to learn all that stuff now, so why bother trying.” Now, I actually tried and I feel like my grades are going to be a lot better this year. Hard work DOES get you somewhere and all people can ask of me is try and I have been. It makes me feel better about school and it also makes me feel like I can reach the goal of obtaining two degrees in four years.

Guess what!? I added textures and light textures to the visitors content just a few minutes ago. I still have to finish the domain page though, but all in due time.

Its strange that I’m actually updating means how I have a lot to finish this week. I have a photography assignment due Thursday, a Micro assignment due Friday, midterms in my Arts of Africa and my Financial Accounting class on Monday which I need to study for, and Financial Accounting homework due Friday. This has been one of my more stressful weeks and I’m handling it much better than my semi-stressful weeks. I think being so busy has kept my mind from wandering to such thoughts.

A big thanks to everyone who commented my last entry. I shall return comments soon. Also, I’ve noticed that sometimes your URL won’t show up in WP after submitting it. If anyone knows how to fix that, please let me know. Also, if you noticed that happened to you, submit another comment and I’ll edit your first one with the address. Thanks.

EDIT If your comment doesn’t address a topic that you need to discuss with me or something meaningful, as in you actually took the time to read my blog and commented about it or something related to it, then I will be removing your URL from your comment.  I always read everyone’s blog fully and make a comment related to it.  If I don’t want to, I don’t leave a comment.  So please, have the same courtesy for me.  Thank you. 

Dustin, my boyfriend, got layed off from his job yesterday.  Where he works just opened not too long ago and their numbers weren’t high enough to keep him around.  They said that as soon as their numbers get high enough and if the manager and/or assistant manager are still around, he’d get his job back.  Luckily for him, he went job searching as soon as he found the news and he has a new job already.  He’s going to be working for the landscape company his mom works for.  He likes landscaping and he’s getting paid more than he did at his previous job. 

In about fifteen minutes I’m gonna head down to the dark room so I can get my prints I did yesterday.  I love my photography class sooo much.  Not only do I love taking pictures, I love the process of printing.  Everything is such a surprise! :D  Obviously, you can imagine how your film’s going to look, but you don’t really know until you develop it.  Probably next time I blog, I’ll scan my contact sheets and the prints I’ve done so far.  Outside feedback on them will be great!

 Yesterday Jasmine, one of my best friends, and I walked around downttown.  I got my Guitar Hero cleaned at Gamerz because it kept locking up and stuff. :/  Cleaning games usually cost $3, but the guy told me not to worry about it.  He probably thought me and Jazz were hot. HAHA.  After that we went to Coldstone and I got Mint ice cream with Oreo’s in it.  It was deliciously unhealthy! :D  Then we went to Ragstock and of course every time we go there, we HAVE to buy something.  Jasmine bought these gold shiny leggings so she can cut them like shorts for her Halloween costume (She’s being Wonder Woman).  I bought a blue shirt and a purple tshirt dress, which I’m wearing today.  Purple looks awesome on green-eyed people.

Yesterday I also put up some content.  The “Mandee” page is finished and the “Visitors” page has icons back up.  I’m planning on putting up some textures, light textures, wallpapers, and maybe some patterned backgrounds.  So look out for that stuff soon!  Hopefully, I’ll get the domain page up in the next few days so I don’t get yelled at for not crediting my resources. :/  Have a nice day everyone. :D  Oh and join Vinyl MB and say “mandee!” referred you. Its a really nice mb.

My wordpress fucked up, but everything should work now, minus the pages because I stupidly didn’t save the information on everything. Hopefully the content will be up soon.